Alas - 2001
"Absolute Purity"
Track List:
 1. Absolute Purity 4:07
 2. The Enchanted 4:13
 3. Endlessly Searching 5:14
 4. Silencing The Sorrow 5:12
 5. Loss Of A Life 4:56
 6. Tragedies 3:37
 7. Quest Of Serenity 5:10
 8. Rejection Of What You Perceive 4:34
 9. Surmounting The Masses 4:10
10. Longing For Destiny 3:24

Facts:
All music, lyrics, and orchestrations written by Eric Rutan
Recorded at: Big Blue meanie Studio, Jersey City
Produced by Eric Butan
Tracking Engineer: Jay Kantor
Mixed by Dan Iannuzzelli and Eric Rutan
Mastered by Colin Davis at Imperial Mastering California

Line-up:
Eric Rutan: all guitars, keyboards
Martina Hornbacher Astner: vocals
Howard Davis: drums
Scott Hornick bass guitar

1. Absoulete purity
+++++++++++++++++++
Come enter my, realm of emotion
The deepest depths of my solidity
Come swim in my, rumbling ocean
This enormous mass of infinity

Why can?t I fade, this pain away
Why can?t I fell, strength within myself
How must I live to void away my discontent
What must I give, I shall consent

Absolute Purity
Grant me the clarity, to reign in this reality
Absolute Purity
I am what I?ll always be, conquering the enemies

Weep so for my, grief overwhelms me
grievence that lasts an eternity
Weep as you shall, see what i see
the anguish of eternal sea


Why can?t I make, my grief escape
Why can?t I take, all of my dignity
How must I live to gain back all my stregnth and wit
What must I give I shall grant it

Absolute Purity
Grant me the clarity, to reign in this reality
Absolute Purity
I am what I?ll always be, conquering the enemies


2. The Enchanted
++++++++++++++++
It is, I who shall, reclaim prosperity
It is, Thou who must, contemplate vitality
It is, only Thee, who now can redeem Thyself
For it, is he, who hath forsaken destiny

Enchanted, as a promising dream
Enchanted, by the will to achieve my dreams
Enchanted, by the kindling of fate
Enchanted, by the konwledge of fate

It is, I who shall, reclaim my dignity
It is, Thou who must, obtain pure divinity
It is, only Thee, who now can redeem Thyself
For it, is he, who hath forsaken destiny

Enchanted, as a promising dream
Enchanted, by the will to achieve my dreams
Enchanted, by the kindling of fate
Enchanted, by the konwledge of fate


3. Endlessly Searching
++++++++++++++++++++++
As I sit here, ann ponder on my life
I look upon my scars that never heal
I keep climbing, the mountain ever so steep
Alwayls wondering what I?ll obtain by...

Endlessly searching
for sanctity
for humillity
for faith
I live to fulfill my destiny
endlessly searching
for my fate

Now I consider, all choices of my life
I try to change my shortcomings at hand
I must sustain my, integrity inside
I will continue to strive towards goals by...

Endlessly searching
for sanctity
for humillity
for faith
I live to fulfill my destiny
endlessly searching
for my fate


4. Silencing The Sorrow
+++++++++++++++++++++++
Ease this grieving, so misleading, take away this flowing stream
Endless mournig, solemn lorning, encompassing my torrid dreams
Painful weeping, poison seeping, drowning in the rolling stream

The winds of season turning
Diluted blood churning
The withered soul now yearning
Silencing the Sorrow

The lakes of anguish breeding
Layers of grief now seeding
My destinys now leading me
Silencing the Sorrow

Horrid seething, faintly breathing, must escape this fleshly pain
Life so dreary, becoming so weary, can?t evade the endless shame
Complicating, now partaking, in the stream which has no gain

The winds of season turning
Diluted blood churning
The withered soul now yearning
Silencing the Sorrow

The lakes of anguish breeding
Layers of grief now seeding
My destinys now leading me
Silencing the Sorrow

The agony of the force of stream, endlessly flooding I must heed
The surging waters begin devouring me, I must delete the pain that i see
I cleanse away all impurities, my pure vision shall now proceed
I now succed throught the diying breed, silencing the sorrow and grant my deep


6. Tragedies
++++++++++++
I have seen, such angst, and pain ever so deep
I have heard, such cries, that linger on and on
I have had, to witness, fear froma travesty
I need, to express, this unbearable mass of pain

Tragedies
they anger me
they engulf me to no end
I long for the end of this misery
That always breeds within

Must all, this loss, take over my being
Why can?t, I free, myself from all this grief
I need, to find my, answer to all this pain
I need, to find my, escape from these winding roads of...

Tragedies
they anger me
they engulf me to no end
I long for the end of this misery
That always breeds within
Tragedies
they sadden me
They enrage me to no end
I long for the end of this misery
I long for the end!!!


7. Quest Of Serenity
++++++++++++++++++++
I am of the kind, of the divine
I?ll search till I find
my visionary sights of sight
I defy all the weak, the foul who now reek
I see past the lies, the truth I shall find on my...

Quest of serenity
I search inside of me
for pure amnesty
from all that I bequeath
Quest of serenity
I seek the truth in me
My own reality
My own avidity

So easy to stray, from the serene way
I shall not wander from
the path on which I?m destined to
finding my fate, as I look through my hate
I shall now become, one with me on my...

Quest of serenity
I search inside of me
for pure amnesty
from all that I bequeath
Quest of serenity
I seek the truth in me
My own reality
My own avidity

I am now thee savior, of poise an promise
I am now thee master, of my emotions
I am now thee savior, of my dignity
I am now thee master, of my own life!

Quest of serenity
I search inside of me
for pure amnesty
from all that I bequeath
Quest of serenity
I seek the truth in me
My own reality
My own avidity


8. Refection Of What You Perceive
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Why, how can this be, such ignorance and stupidity
I defile, such denial, and rejection of my dejection
You pitiful pions, I shall not reconcile

I denounce your beliefs
I shall not be deceived
Your offerings I shan?t receive
Rejection of what you preceive

Why, how dare this be, realize your own, insecurities
My pain, won?t be your gain
your false intentions, they have been revealed

I denounce your beliefs
I shall not be deceived
Your offerings I shan?t receive
Rejection of what you preceive

i won?t cry, I won?t lie, i won?t cater to your pity
I will shield, the wounds unhealed, your empathy is not real
Like vultures you fedd, on my implanted seed
Your false pretentions I don?t need
I won?t give, I will live, your idiocy I shall not forgive


9. Surmounting The Masses
+++++++++++++++++++++++++
Defeating opression, is my obsession
Deleting the tyranny, erasing the fear in me
Destined to receive, what I conceive
Dishonor the majority, by my authority

I see through the haze
devoid of your daze
your insolent ways
Surmounting the mases
I reject what you cherish
Your fate you shall perish
I rejoice in your pain

Feel all this misery, as you begin to see
pure coal to succeed, which I shall not heed
clear path to victory, defeating the tyranny
erasing the very need, to associate with your breed

I see through the haze
devoid of your daze
your insolent ways
Surmounting the mases
I reject what you cherish
Your fate you shall perish
I rejoice in your pain

Surmounting the masses
The masses

how does it feel to be maimed
by the pain of eroding soul
drown in all your glory!
Drown in all your lies!


10. Longing For Destiny 
(instrumental)
Thanks to Luis for sending this lyrics.